T.S. What do you mean

OMG,OMG,I gotta to say I miss my blog sooooooo much!!!! Sorry not patronize here very often I mean hey, I have a real life( just kidding hahaha).Ok ,back to main subject, I eagerly want to share my current mood and situation to you guys.

I quited the job what I talked about in my last blog.I mean the reason is all things there were beyong my button line. Not only can't see future clearly,but the mean people drove you crazy.well, I don't know if I should use "lucky"word to describe my new job. you see, life is everywhere. life is about challenge.I acknowledge the content of this new job is a step forward compared with the old one.But the workload is heavy and the competition is more intense.My colleague is a ass-kisser. It makes me feel stressed out that I envy what he can get through kissing-ass,while at the same time I don't want to be become that type.So, I guess the normalcy of life is imperfection. What I should do is accumulate experience and stretch my uncomfort zone.Well, only when you grow, you can feel the pain. Good luck marine,have fun in this adventure.

Ok, let's talk about khun.How to describe the situation right now....I open eyes with hope and desire every day and only end up this day with envy and regret.I know it's wrong to be sentimental about sth you can't not control.But I love khunnie a lot.I hope he can get a broad platform and abundant resources since he has both ability and integrity.Well, no matter what I can't love anyone else, so I decide to get this hard time over with him.Good luck to khunnie, the sunshine boy.You are golden.

Last, why I name this blog tonight" What do yo mean",well ,just love bieber's song. He is very talented. What I love about his song is " love yourself","Let me love you","what do you mean”
OK，that's it.hope 2017 is a fruitful year for khunnie.For me ,I will alway work hard. See u soon, my blog!

Live like a soldier

Hi~my lovely bolg, loooooooong time no see. I harbour great regret for u because I almost have not written blog for like a year. Things change enormously.I began to work 6 months ago and it didn't not work well.Remember how happy I was when I first got my offer? I felt like I am the most lucky person in the world.I am not that easily contented but the situation then was really satisfying.I got my certificate and a good job. The job prospect seems really bright.However, you never know. In the mignight dream,I blame my innocence and negligence.More over, I blame the ignorant fuck boss and malicious workmate. I feel my talent and ability are underrated here and I can't see a clear career ladder.I just don't understand the whole world all of the sudden and is it some kind of ordeal or test to check if I am the person who can man up and bear all the challenge? Because China has an old saying, “days will drop responsibilities on, but they will always first frustrate ,harass him up." or American would say, grin and bear it. If it so, I will accept my fate without complaining one word. misfortune may be a blessing in disguise. the most important thing right now is work your ass off on valuable things while keeping the faith. To assure my expenses( apartment rent, electric cost and other living cost) meet end, I have to endure all the crap in the work and make for a living. at the mean time, I will not give up my dream or my positive thought for those nonsense people or trivials. I gotta protect my dream. I live every day with patience， perseverance， and belief. That's how we live in the darkness and live beautifully.The road forward is still long and mysterious. This one year or more experience is one part of my entire life and I love my life. I don't want to live obsolescently in any phase of my life. I like the hard part of my life and I like the way I fight against it. Live like a soldier and that is how I choose my life.

Good night, love khunnie always and forever. Good luck to me, when I look back in the future and see this blog, I believe I will laugh about it. bye bye for a while. ~love u marine bolg, see u soon =] (for real haha )

new beginning of 2015

Hi!!!It has been a long time since I last time"patronized"here.I am sooooo sorry about being lazy and idle.But, here I am, to clean the slate, and have a brand new beginning in 2015.If you have the similar plan and resolution, join me!haha

okay, let's see what we got now here.well,if you ask me to describe the degree of my life satisfation at the present, I would say 80%.I just got a pretty good job offer and a good result of medical examination report.And you and your gf got on well with each other,at least on the surface(hahahahah).however, you know, I am the kind of person who usually encounters bad things at a high probability.It seemd like I have a unlucky body-mass.So, when things got favorable，I feel weird and insecure.I am afraid of losing what I have now shortly after before I realize that.I know it is not the right life value.Do not ruin a good day by holding on the bad feelings.I know that.The world tomorrow has nothing to do with what you are worried about today.So,the fact that your past was not as good as you thought does not mean your future can not be as beautiful as what you imagine.Let's be positive.Let's fate take its course, and I just got focus what I have to do.

speaking of what I have to do......exam in Guam.....I just got speechless now.I know it is very urgent and important.But I just got no good state of mind to review the book.ok, I know the hardest part is when you get out of the confort zone, and once you make it, the things afterwards will be on the right track.

that's pretty much for today.khun, you are hero,no doubt. I hold high expectations of u in 2015, because u deserve that. And I try to keep positive towards myself in 2015.I will work my ass off and harvest waht I sow.so,Let's see.see u~~my dear blog

2014_Let‘s go on the journey till the end

Hi~long long time no see. While I am out, gigantic changes happened in various aspects of my life, so do you. And, dating news break-out can be put in the top three in the list, right? haha. en,well ,I am happy for you, really. you are such a good match. people can call you guys gold boy and emerald girl.you guys are so enviable for your matching good looks. Of course ,I know the balancing of personality and common experience are the key reasons why you are together.But,still, in the mid-night dream, a haunting light sorrow is because I am worried about you. I worry that you will give up, I worry that you could be hurt, I worry that people do not forgive you.
I know my little thought would not change anything,but I just want you to know that my heart will go on. As long as I breath, I will love you with my sincere and pure heart.
Since cb schedule is coming, I am interested in your hair and dressing style.Keep your hair bang!!! blonde hair!!!hahaha, leave me alone, I am just chattering nonsense.And when you show on some programs, do not be afraid and be true to yourself. At first, I will be disheartened at the fact that fans are leaving you. But now,I clear out because others' leave should not dismay me. They are irrelevant people.The most important thing is I am still here and I have a clear and easy conscience.
While, talk me for a while. I live a quite good life recently. Good job and Good result of examination. And still, I will work hard in the coming days.khunnie,you are always always my sunshine. And Thank you for everything. I gained joy and happiness from loving you. So, let's dream, work and achieve together Till The End. love you, be healthy and wealthy. love you always and forever. night

what do you want from me ,life~

Hi~my cutie, my sweet heart~it has been a long time since I last dropped by. Every time I concentrated on this blog and determined to give a preachment here, I got interrupted by sudden appearance of affairs. Well, it is all excuses, right? OK.OK, I will speak out the full~The reason I did not come here often is because I am fucking lazy and tired. Anyway, here I am. I just want to straighten out my thoughts, and tell you something secret.
things got pretty intense here you know? On the surface, I am cool and silent~it seems like I face all the challenges with a light heart. That is not because I am calm and visionary. It is because i know the importance of being nonchalant. Right now, I am a little bit overburdening. I do not know the priorities of so many emerging trifles.I understand you should always keep informed and alert to key information related. I know that you should assign your time reasonably and update progress in accordance to the timeline. I am a sensible girl. And it is the fact that a reasonable man will adapt to the world ,and a unreasonable man will only try to break the rules. I feel a little bit alone, you know that? I need to give a full vent to my sadness and sorrow and anxiety.

Too much about me, let us talk about you~ you know what? You are the cutest ever,haha~ My affection for you never changed. More accurately, I appreciate the time when you are alive on the stage. That is my source of happiness. This perio
d of time will stuck into my memory for eternity. Since history will never repeat itself, I will cherish it like pearl and write it in my life memorandum. I will be grateful to you my entire life. Thank you always&4ever.

About who she is

Dear baby,I am finally free from cpa examination.Such a relief (sounds like I have put a lot of effort to do it,haha) so sorry about not writing blogs often,and this place seems like a barren planet hostile to memoirs.Anyway,I just want to tell you that I feel weird today.And the "chief culprit" is you,right! haha. Because you have said a lot of telltale words which is associated with your lapsed emotional life.I started to question my judgement about your current girlfriend.well,As contemplative as I used to be (haha),I have assembled pretty convincing evidences which indicated you are in love with H(code),BUT,the magazines where you were interviewed said you did not end up with that girl with  whom you climbed Nan Mountains and had hot coco&marshmallows. You said in the journal that you had huge crush on her and she did not know that.Well,unrequited love is the most touching and aggrieved affection in the world .I take pity on you like always,and you know,I decided to respect every single decision you made in the past or you will make in the future.Because you are the one I care about most and I won't get lost in bg make-believe fantacy anymore.I will not twitter some flattering words against my will just to make friends in virtual network world. So ,do not worry,I am the last one to leave in your fandom,maybe,the only one who do not leave.good night,my boy

Progress Together

It has been a while since I last wrote blogs.Recently,overwhelmed by CPA test material,I hardly free up time and space to focus on you.But,less words doesn't mean less love,on the contrary,it means more thoughts and prays.Dear khun,you are occupied by Chineses drama shooting.And I know you are getting along so well with other talents and staff,which really released me from anxiety.I care about you,miss you,and worry about you every day,every single moment.Your news and fan-cam seems a mind-of-peace component in my daily life.Sometimes,I want to just drop off everything,pack my suitcase,and rush out to see you in Xiamen,but many trifles and duty keep me back in real life.missing you is like poison,or more like weed,crystal meth.It makes me addictive and lost.People say,the feeble-minded are first to sink in the fallen world,but I don't believe that.Because love is also a powerful motor.I build on the affection for you,and to be perfected,which will be close to you.It is a virtuous and positive circle.Remember,when you get better,the people and things around you will get better too.So let's overcome obstacles and progress together.Love you,my angel-Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul.